went Sun Plaza for Lunch with my family... after tt, i took de train alone, as i'm still early i went to PS to shop for awhile alone... walking ard aimlessly... haha... left 1/2hr later, meet de rest of my FYP friendz at tanjiong pagar... walk to my fac hse... start counting the formula, pounding calcium and multi vitamins into powder, melting, mixing n pouring the chocolates into the mould... ate alot of calcium today i guess... gd experiences in tasting n making chcolates... after which we walked to china town, left be4 my frenz finish their dinner to meet sauming... tts when i start to get pissed off... suppose to meet his at bishan, tts when the lies began... 1st... while i was at newton, he LIED to me tt he was waiting for train n he waited very long for it... 2nd... when i missed my statn n alight at YCK, i called n ask where he was he LIED to me tt he was at Katib... whereby i waited 2 trains be4 he rch YCK... ridiculous rite? lie aso duno how to lie... so odvious n make me waited for him! bloody hell... i was damn pissed by him... wats more he actually went to meet his frens w/o telling me n lie to me tt his already on his way... toopid~ as if i dun let him to meet his frenz... if he will be late jus tell me la... lie to me n make me wait... thou its not a very big deal but u did lie to me!!! i hate liers!!!!!! u shuld noe tt very clear n dare to lie to me!!!!! guys r really bastards!~ can treat u very well n lie to us! i really duno how to forgive u den... but wat can i do... gonna make u pay for it n rem for ur life time not to make tis mistake again! u better felt sorry n guilty for real... finally can smile at him when we were to eat xiao wan mee at a coffeeshop. after tt we went to pasamalam n he bought a power ranger mask! haha... tts his punishment to lie to me! i wanna make his wear it infront of ppl so tt he will rem it for his life time. got him to wear it at MRT statn, let u off only ar... not much ppl was there to see... u better dun lie to me nx time huh! i'll kill u!!!! clear!?!?! dun blame me for being rude or fierce... i really cant stand ppl to lie to me... i really cant stand ppl nt treating me as gd as be4... i really cant stand ppl to give empty promises or promises tts hard to keep like forever or not do it agn etc... its best tt i dun take any words so seriously, i dun wan things tt u said will be jus a past n the future will be diff. i dun wanna get hurt in tis way, i really dun wan... sry tt i'm always 'protecting' myself... i jus dun wan to get hurt agn... i shuldnt hav expect anything... no expectation no disappointment... i shuld be content...
after which, tgt we went to meet xueni at yishun reservior near her hse, den walk to safra n sat at bowling alley to talk for a walk n look thru her photos taken at china. after tt we walked to her hse, i looked at all her clothes n bags she bought from china while sauming smoking n waiting for us outside... we went for nite cycling, lie on some benchs at another resevior... lookin at the stars, theres a lot... chit chat for quite a short while need to rush back n tk my last train le... it is aso the 1st time tt he didnt sent me hm... but at least he accom my by sms-ing me. as usual everyday w/o fail he will meet his frens no matter how late it is... its gd to hav frenz to cherish but dun lie to me agn abt meeting them til late etc ok? i wun control u de... u really can do watever u wan... jus tell me can liao... as for me... i got to find my other stuffs to do... i cant rely too much on u... i got to tink for myself...
jus 1 wk of sch days so much hav happened, well not much actually but theres definitely some changes... lesser time seeing each other, get more tired when meeting up, less things to do tgt, 1st time lie to me, 1st time not sending me hm... it ok... tts life n i shuld hav expect all tis to come... n i'm sure there will be more like not able to see each other everyday... lesser time tgt... etc... i'll expecting it will ready for it... its like a new beginning to us.. to see if we can last... how strong our relationship is etc... to say, i've been with u for less den 2 mth... i hope tts more to come be4 anythin unhappy stuffs come into picture... hope we can pull thru anything tts ahead of us... i hope we will stay with each other n not difting off as time goes by... no matter wat things we encounter i hope we can solve it tgt... we got to learn to forgive n forget, u shuld noe my temper by now... i could get very mean at times, u noe i need time to cool down n hate liers, thx for ur understanding n accepting me as myself, u r gotta be stronger den me... dun ever hurt or leave me like my past... rem, no matter wat happen if u really have to leave... make me leave u n not u leaving me w/o giving a damn to how i feel... dun every forget tt times tt u promised me n said to me... i may not appear to be as much as i care... but u noe how much i've given in tis relationship... i may be shaky at time n u gonna be strong by my side... i hope u understand wat i mean... n most importantly now is for u to plan ur time wisely ok? i noe u'll spend time with me but plz plan out ur time... like meetin ur frenz n get some rest as well. wats more is when u r busy with ur proj etc... u'll definitely not having enuff time de... if u dun mind we can do sch work tgt de... like u can work with ur idividual proj with i can do my research too... i hope u understand wat i mean... i shall stop here le... too much stuffs came into my mind n i jus put it all down in words here... guess it will be a nv ending list if i dun stop here... its 2.43am now... u still said u'll get hm 1 hr later when u sms-ed me at 00.50. so by rite u shuld hav left by 01.50 but tts no news from u... noe wat i mean... say only de tings u can achive... by de time u read tis i shuld be slping soundly le ba... u dun slp too late okies? pls tk care of urself... nite...
wish upon a star atSunday, April 23, 2006.Sunday, April 23, 2006
haha, long time din blog le... reminded by ming... anw, no one see my blog other den him. if there is anyone viewing do tag so i noe yah. haha...
alot to update actually, spending most of my time with him~ seeing him everyday even since be4 we r tgt... haha~ most memorable was his friends' chalet. spending 2 nites at de chalet with him. i hope i get along well with him friends... n i'm sure he enjoyed coz he got both me n his frens to accom him~ haha... still can rem de nite when we went to walk at siloso beach... we saw fireworks thou it wasnt clear... de beach were silent... cant see anyone ard as thou its our place... sat on de bridge... surrounded by water and de stars n mood above us. still can feel as thou we were floating on de water when we close our eyes... hehe... it was very peaceful n we enjoy de silent tgt... :)(: during chalet days... i enjoyed alot with him... de luge ride... playing cards games with him n his frenz, bbq-ing, swimming at de pool n sea... haha... n de crazy face he gave when he di siao me n i di siao him back... ran after him, poke him... n eating ice cream, piggyback me, sun tanning etc... those r de days in chalet... :)(:
i love it when ming sang songs to me while we were walking on de street at nite, by de bay @ esplanade or any beach or on de phone... i knew he sang frm his heart n its his zhen xing hua. n when he is not ard... i cant still feel it when i listen to those songs tt he sang... like now, i'm listening to 'dou shi ni'... hehe... hei se mo yi... kiss goodbye, yue ding, bu yao hai pa, this i promise... i do cherish you etc...
he always allow me to bully him... to poke him on his waist or armpit... haha. he still hvnt get frustrated of him. but de more he allow de more i will make fun of him... but i noe gt limit when he give me de face... haha.
tt silly... duno y suddenly wan to stop smoking n see how long he can tahan... i'm quite surprise by him doing... din expect him to do tt... noe he gotta smoke somehow... but i'm jus glad tt he will come to tink of tt n actually try it todae. haha... i din expect more, jus content n appreciate de things tt he do... :)
so i went to his hse to accom him... but he slept like pig... reading some book on relationship... i nearly fall aslp at his rm too... called a few frenz but all busy... den decide to go out use com but din expect to wake him up... after awhile he awake n we watched the notebook. a very romantic story... after which he sent me hm... ate m&ns on de bus... haha, den he meet his frenz le... but so sweet of him to still call me when he is free... hehe, thx...
really thx for ur love... i couldnt be happier w/o u... ur silliness, cuteness, machoness n u got so much to give n willing to do tings for me w/o any complaints (or hvnt yet haha! :p). cant imagine my life w/o u... i would be de moody, sad n unhappy abt my life person... i got alot to tink abt myself... my used to be life... its different now... friends n relationship... sumtimes i really duno how to look at things, always tends to tink on de down side, but i keep reminding myself on de bright side. my friends r different now... all buzy with own stuffs, not as close as be4, din share as much as be4, i jus unhappy tt tings couldnt remain de same as it was, but its ok now, nth matters, friends come n go... din expect much from them le... so long still in contact n meet up once in a while shuld be content le. only envy u n ur friends who r still so close n share lots of laughter n crazy nite out. so i'll always allow u to be with ur frens even if tt means less time for me n in fact i hope u spend more time with them n probably if u dun mind i can accom u n ur frenz sometime too... thou i still feel unsure n insecure sometimes, i'm glad tt u r happy with me, n its all worth while if i can make u a happy man. hehe... sometimes i jus hope tt i can open my heart completely to love some1 like u... but i still cant help but feelin' not sure... faith n hope abt de future i still dare not take... mb its abt my past relationship, n i working very hard to put it all down n open my heart freely to love once agn. sometimes i felt i almost did but the moment is still not complete... i hope u understand n i noe u do n r very paitent with me... n jus to let u noe tt i appreciate everyting abt u... time will tell... i really hope it will... i wouldnt wan to miss out de moment tgt with u too... i enjoy n cherish every moment with u... love u dar... muack! :)(:
wish upon a star atWednesday, April 12, 2006.Wednesday, April 12, 2006