haha, long time din blog le... reminded by ming... anw, no one see my blog other den him. if there is anyone viewing do tag so i noe yah. haha...
alot to update actually, spending most of my time with him~ seeing him everyday even since be4 we r tgt... haha~ most memorable was his friends' chalet. spending 2 nites at de chalet with him. i hope i get along well with him friends... n i'm sure he enjoyed coz he got both me n his frens to accom him~ haha... still can rem de nite when we went to walk at siloso beach... we saw fireworks thou it wasnt clear... de beach were silent... cant see anyone ard as thou its our place... sat on de bridge... surrounded by water and de stars n mood above us. still can feel as thou we were floating on de water when we close our eyes... hehe... it was very peaceful n we enjoy de silent tgt... :)(: during chalet days... i enjoyed alot with him... de luge ride... playing cards games with him n his frenz, bbq-ing, swimming at de pool n sea... haha... n de crazy face he gave when he di siao me n i di siao him back... ran after him, poke him... n eating ice cream, piggyback me, sun tanning etc... those r de days in chalet... :)(:
i love it when ming sang songs to me while we were walking on de street at nite, by de bay @ esplanade or any beach or on de phone... i knew he sang frm his heart n its his zhen xing hua. n when he is not ard... i cant still feel it when i listen to those songs tt he sang... like now, i'm listening to 'dou shi ni'... hehe... hei se mo yi... kiss goodbye, yue ding, bu yao hai pa, this i promise... i do cherish you etc...
he always allow me to bully him... to poke him on his waist or armpit... haha. he still hvnt get frustrated of him. but de more he allow de more i will make fun of him... but i noe gt limit when he give me de face... haha.
tt silly... duno y suddenly wan to stop smoking n see how long he can tahan... i'm quite surprise by him doing... din expect him to do tt... noe he gotta smoke somehow... but i'm jus glad tt he will come to tink of tt n actually try it todae. haha... i din expect more, jus content n appreciate de things tt he do... :)
so i went to his hse to accom him... but he slept like pig... reading some book on relationship... i nearly fall aslp at his rm too... called a few frenz but all busy... den decide to go out use com but din expect to wake him up... after awhile he awake n we watched the notebook. a very romantic story... after which he sent me hm... ate m&ns on de bus... haha, den he meet his frenz le... but so sweet of him to still call me when he is free... hehe, thx...
really thx for ur love... i couldnt be happier w/o u... ur silliness, cuteness, machoness n u got so much to give n willing to do tings for me w/o any complaints (or hvnt yet haha! :p). cant imagine my life w/o u... i would be de moody, sad n unhappy abt my life person... i got alot to tink abt myself... my used to be life... its different now... friends n relationship... sumtimes i really duno how to look at things, always tends to tink on de down side, but i keep reminding myself on de bright side. my friends r different now... all buzy with own stuffs, not as close as be4, din share as much as be4, i jus unhappy tt tings couldnt remain de same as it was, but its ok now, nth matters, friends come n go... din expect much from them le... so long still in contact n meet up once in a while shuld be content le. only envy u n ur friends who r still so close n share lots of laughter n crazy nite out. so i'll always allow u to be with ur frens even if tt means less time for me n in fact i hope u spend more time with them n probably if u dun mind i can accom u n ur frenz sometime too... thou i still feel unsure n insecure sometimes, i'm glad tt u r happy with me, n its all worth while if i can make u a happy man. hehe... sometimes i jus hope tt i can open my heart completely to love some1 like u... but i still cant help but feelin' not sure... faith n hope abt de future i still dare not take... mb its abt my past relationship, n i working very hard to put it all down n open my heart freely to love once agn. sometimes i felt i almost did but the moment is still not complete... i hope u understand n i noe u do n r very paitent with me... n jus to let u noe tt i appreciate everyting abt u... time will tell... i really hope it will... i wouldnt wan to miss out de moment tgt with u too... i enjoy n cherish every moment with u... love u dar... muack! :)(:
wish upon a star atWednesday, April 12, 2006.Wednesday, April 12, 2006