haha, every time i open 'create', i duno wat to update. there is alot of things in my mind but wasnt shown out most of the time. jus start at my current situation... its a looong day today. the fac required EVERY team to present, by rite all modules shuld finish by 4pm, but its 4.19pm now n it is only the 5th team presenting! still got 6th ppt n quiz. i'm already switched off after my team finish presenting. n i spend so many hours to do de slides but i only presents a few minutes. and i tink i done badly... at lost of tings i've missed out n alot of scientific words i duno how to pronouce!
having 6th ppt now... brb...
finally lesson ends... reflect on wat i've done today... nth to improve my daily grade! i tink i'm jus suck at it... i jus cant talk during discussion! alot of questions in my mind but i jus... eh... ar... orh... but it wun come out!!!! arghh... i hate myself for tt. i'm in 3rd yr n i'm still like tt~ guess i have to focus on my tests le. wat if i study so hard but results still sucks???? 1st test out le... my grades sucks~ suck-er den those tt say dey nv study... damn it! hate myself agn...
during sch n after sch i'm totally a different person. i'm so damn quiet in sch, even wif frens... i even lazy to leave me chair to accom fren go toilet etc... u noe... i jus dun feel like it. no feelings to anything... nth is fun, nth is interesting, nth! inside me i was like screaming!!! but outside i was like... cold... so every time after lesson i wanna rush home~~~ felt so much relieve when i'm alone, at hm or with ming ming... hehe...
now... gotta find solution to watever tt is a problem to me... i jus wan to grumble in my blog... haha... i gotta study smart! not blindly! focus on my test qns! i always misread it n ans wrongly! blah blah blah...
haiz... gtg le... gg to eat in sch n go meet ming ming... :)(:
wish upon a star atWednesday, May 31, 2006.Wednesday, May 31, 2006
im gonna hav holi in less den 2 wks time! haha.. so fast 5 wks hav passed since i 1st started sch.. daily grades so far still ok.. luckily no Cs yet... mostly Bs... only a few As.. last yr liao. suppose to be doin my best... so tt i can get into local Uni... if not gd enuff, maybe gg monash for 1 yr to get a degree, sounds not bad... but gotta leave singapore for a yr.. hehe.. see my luck ba. :) used to be very stress abt not gettin As or speak not enuff in class... now? dun really care much... so be it... at least not so stress now.. hehe... its lab management module today... finish my work le.. waitin for presentatn... meanwhile got time to update my blog...
finally been to balcony with xueni... but is was ard 6plus where there isnt much ppl. ordered fired sotong, one cocktails and one ice mocha... haha... relaxing n chatting all the way.. got tk photos aso.. hehe... waiting for ppl to leave so that we can sit the sofa.. but tk photo only haha. den went walk walk and find pei qi at far east. stay there for 1hr plus... chit chat etc... wait for her to knock off, den her bf drive us to yishun... ate nasi lomak there... waiting for sauming to come. haha, the chicken wings nice!~ nx outin with her will be at marina sq~ yeah~
i wana get a bicycle!!!
feelin bored sumtimes.. dun feel like talkin in the mrn.. get too bored in the aftern... finally sch ends... as if it is the start of my day... everyday has been like tt.. guess it will be de same thru out...
duno wats on my mind now... feelin hungry... cant wait to go hm... wanna do pp report.. guess not enuff time liao.. haha... fac jus came... gotta start boring lesson soon~ :)
wish upon a star atTuesday, May 23, 2006.Tuesday, May 23, 2006
updates! finally... haha... too bored le... i'm slacking at my favourite corner in sch... the one near water cooler, its a hiden corner... haha but tis time wif my other class mates yingying, alvin and adrian... some talkin abt maple... and other things under the sun... haha... den i'm here reading fel's blog n writing post. wait for u tell me ur blog link duno when liao la.. tis jus show how frequent u view my entires... haha jk... i aso seldom update le... blah blah blah...
duno how to comment abt my life now... haha... studies? tryin to focus... ppl might tink i'm 'hardworking' but nth in my mind... makes no difference... daily grades still not getting better... very competitive in class... IPBMS class~!!! all talk like mad... no chance for me le... sian... everytime tell me myself to talk talk talk! but nth come up... i've tried ar... too soft spoken fac din notice me... or sumtimes aso dun dare to point out in class! or wat i wanna say said by others le... so jia lat~~~ haiz! lab management today... boring! the fac quite bias... jus like last sem microb fac... but she is better, at least a B not C!! kk... mus try to focus n find sth to talk agn... focus!!!!
my interpersonal relationship still sucks... nth to talk abt... no common topic... tink i'm a too boring person liao... haha... dun hav de feelin of gettin close to sum1 anymore... haha aso duno wat i wan for my new life.. still searchin... hehe... din forget u la... u r my new life... jus tt i cant always rely on u. u noe wat i mean... lesson starts le... update again...
wish upon a star atTuesday, May 16, 2006.Tuesday, May 16, 2006