its 4.36am now. ya... still not slping... heres what i've done for the day:
mrn wake up at 11am... bathe n prepare to go out with my family. gotta spend time to blow dry n style me hair... the new daily contact lens giving me lots of trouble! its so soft n sticks to me finger more than to my eyes. n hard time getting it out man~ pinched my eyes ball a few times~ eeu~ anw, got myself dressed n head to heeren marchie... but it changed to other name. tts me, my 2 bros, dad, bday gal mum, my grandma n HK aunt who is gg back to HK tml!~ we order alot alot alot of food~ tts cod fish, pan fried dory, chicken, mashed potato, rosti, seafood combo, mushroom n shrimp soup, icecream n chocolate fondue!!!! super duper full man... can last til nite time~
after lunch, meet kim n anne at kbox. happy to hear their singing again.. familiar voices n singing... n i tink today my singing sucks~ no feeling, cant sing well... anw.. quite enjoy though... left eariler... btw, its cheap~ $10 on wkends for 3hrs!~
left at 6.40pm... head towards kallang... saw shu en n her boi boi~ haha so qiao we gg for the same concert n sat near each other... anw, i waited for my cousin at the bus stop, parked outside national stadium, walked to the indoor stadium. me n ming sat that the last row on the top! its free tic so cant complain much... too hungry went to buy hotdog with bun, guess wat? it cost $5 each! WTH, tts the most expensive hotdog bun i had la! we jus treat it as the price for coming to this concert... every singers great! live is powerful... esp. joey... oohhhh... haha... after which we n my cousins went for super at sembawang... eat, chit chat watch soccer match... my cousins send ming to meet mark n sent me hm!~ hm sweet hm~... its great to have such cousins n i hav 3 of them~ wahaha~ :)
another day has passed ... wat did i gain? alot... esp. today... i always wanting to have sth more than wat i hav been gg thru everyday... today is slightly abit more... more tots...
actually nth chance much though... still like the same things... singing, gg to beach, sunrise, little prince... sth so familiar n once did tgt too... but tings changed... still likes the same things... jus tt with diff ppl... jus be content tt they r happy with sum1 n we once shared tt be4 too... well.. its always easier to say... haha...
things changed... hard to differentiate what keeps the same n wat has alreadi changed. no assurence, no true talk... jus normal... n wat is normal? words tt doesnt goes with actions. jus let it be... n wish all the best
has always been there... nv noe how gd it is until now den i realise... im grateful... will try to cherish it... though nv say it out... but i hope is there... time will tell...
has always been gd too me... too gd til i duno wat to do... i duno how to cherish as much as u do... probably dun dare... jus hope for ur understanding... dun expect more from me... i cant giv as much... for i will not let u down... plz be patient with me... time will tell...
my life is like a puzzle... pieces every where... duno where they belong... its here n there... sth tt i hav to sort out myself... n its hard when there are in pieces... its different from the start... i duno how to go abt making it better... may not be as strong... but i will try... m i trying hard enough? or i tired too hard? i cant see the line... things still unclear... everyday i may hav diff tots... still choosing which is the best before settling down... some times still wish for a guardian angel... mb tt will make me feel better... it may be unreal.. but it is comforting ... at least at some pt of time... :)(:
wish upon a star atSunday, October 29, 2006.Sunday, October 29, 2006
fri - Florina lesson... me, yingying, yun jing, yen shan, sewlyn, adrian, alvin... 7 of us draw numbers to buy TOTO~ haha 1st prize 5million! funny... haha...
after lesson, went hm... waiting for ming... came my hse... watch tv n slack n bit... went to prepare to go out... he sent me to JE... walked to yingying's hse. had dinner under her blk in a park... surrounded by laterns... 9.30pm... went upstairs to check for TOTO results. haha... too bad... only 1 or 2 match... after tt play majiong... 11pm plus... went to halo bar... its at NP... located near ngee ann alumni... we sat outside... drank 1 small bottle and a share a jug with 4 person... haha... drank til face n neck red red... played dice, mulitples of 7 and 'cai quan'... it was funny n enjoyed very much... went indoor... ktv~ haha... listening to ppl singing, see them cai quan... n waiting for our songs~ haha... funny... we were luff all the way... n we took photos too~
Sat - at nite play candle with my bro, ming n nicole~ haha... no ones playing other us~ n the PSI was so high... it was 150! lucky we din contribute to the environment... haha... after playing was like 12.30 plus le.. ming cycle hm... haha.. jus den he saw Nr2... wahaha...
jus finish chatting with angie... after abt 1 hr of intensive QnA... got to ask alot of stuffs abt Monash... haha oh well... gotta study for me 1st UT lor~ :)(:
wish upon a star atMonday, October 09, 2006.Monday, October 09, 2006
feeling much better recently... happier i guess.. but not totally contented... guess i really hav to learn to forgive n forget... to be more independent n not relying on ppl much... no expectation, no disappointment... easier to say den done...
today quite a fruitful day... hope my participation hav been noted by the fac... i din get A from her be4! n its so hard to understand n communicate with her la... plz plz... haha...
after sch went to lab for awhile to do FYP as usual.. tempering chocolates... left at 5.30pm... rushed to meet ming at wlds statn... very rush... go draw money n buy mac for dinner for my family... 5 filet o fish! haha... rch hm 6.15pm... faster rush to bathe... chop chop change n make up abit... within 20 min we went off to pick my bro at his sch... rch haborfront... a new shoppin' centre call vivo city... another big n huge shoppin' centre~ yeah~~~ haha went to GV... its not open yet.. even the shops... but it'll be ready by sat... so today only open to those who contribute to the building... my dad is one of them.. haha so... we got free tickets~ with free cheesy hotdog, popcorn n drinks each!!!! watched 'Rob B hood'. haha funny n quite a great show i suppose... the baby is so damn cute la!~ anw, the cinema is very big n spacious... got enuff space in front each sit for ppl to go in n out easily...
after the shop we went to walk ard the rest of the cinema... tts a place called gold class... its like a 1st class theatre room... its a smaller room but the seats ar... very comfortable... can be straighten... like the one in the plane... haha... gd exploration...
went to my dad office for a while... slack there... wait til my dad finish his work... after which we went to lavendar food centre n eat the yun ton mee... very nice~ n very full~! enjoyed gg out with my family esp when ming is ard... very tired... in car can rest my head at his shoulder... hehe...
time passes so fast... things hav changed abit here n there... but i hope u'll be the same... for at least rem the u tt i 1st met...
mooncake festival is here very soon~ will be gg to my grandpa hse n after tt ying's... mb be gg out with poly frenz... still not cfm... if nt den i'll go find u... hehe... i noe u'll be enjoyin with ur frenz... i aso wan to find my own 'happiness'... u ar... everyday hang out so late... slp so late n wake up so late~ u r a student after all leh... hope u really noe wat u r doin... dun tired up urself n hope u r doin well in sch.. dun wan to control u... dun wan to nag u... coz i noe no matter wat i say u will still do the tings u do... oh well.. dun care u lor... den wun tink so much for u leh.. hehe.. tk care of urself ba silly... :)(:
wish upon a star atFriday, October 06, 2006.Friday, October 06, 2006
totally disappointed.
"It takes years to build up trust in a relationship, and only a few seconds to destroy it"
"We're never so vulnerable than when we trust someone - but paradoxically, if we cannot trust, neither can we find love or joy"
"Those you trust the most can steal the most"
wait... tts more...
"The best proof of love is trust"
"Without trust there is nothing"
"When mistrust comes in, love goes out"
get the point?
wish upon a star atMonday, October 02, 2006.Monday, October 02, 2006