omg... i dun wanna say tis but... left 13days be4 i fly to aussie... its getting nearer... but i duno when is the time to fear... gosh... actually i shldnt fear... but... ... ... ...
got 2 tots:
first, fear of gg... coz duno wat will happen within tis 9mth... will everything stays the same? will i miss out anything? can i really bear to leave... will i do well there... can i cope with the studies... etc etc...
second, looking fwd to go oversea to study n live there for a period of time... experience the life there... go play n explore... see if we can maintain our relationship... see if everything will still be the same... i'll be more independant... etc etc...
guess its alittle bit of both...
the movie... happy birthday is very nice... story is very touching... it reminds me of my tots... can really feel the movie... felt so sad after tt...
no expectation no disappointment... tk tings slowly at a time... cant give promises... but everytime meets, the feeling is deeper... still waiting for the day... waiting for a day tt the feeling of insecure is gone... waiting for one day to have more confident, waiting for one day that im sure wat i'm doing is rite... waiting for one day that i'm able to have faith n belief again... waiting... for how long? i still not sure... but i'm sure not that day tt u die...
everything happened in life jus come n go... nth stays... only memories... i afraid too much tt i really cant do it... ppl can really walk in and out of my life, i cant tell who will stay, who will not, some stay for a while, some stay longer, but they will be gone for sure... i duno how n who to treasure, i cant treasure much for i afraid wat i treasure will be gone... so i may appear to be a boring person with no strong feelings but tts the way it is alright... come to tink of it, im quite preocupied by my thinking... ya... mb im selfish... i hope to be a better person too. i jus hope tt those who care will understand... understanding is very impt... n i tink tt part is missing... anw, deep in my heart i still cherish everyone... in the way tt i appreciated...
but everything i said is real... every actions and words... i noe u r understanding and wanting to be come stronger... i really appreciate everything that u do k... u r in my top list so dun jus walk out of my life kk... hehe... :)
alrite... can only write til here coz u called... hehe... rem ar... 6 packs hor! hehe...
wish upon a star atMonday, January 29, 2007.Monday, January 29, 2007
long time din blog le... i tink tis will be a short one be4 i slp... feeling damn tired... din finish study neuro... shall see how tml... time passes so fast... will be leaving in abt 3 weeks time... feeling excited and she bu de... thou i din say or show out... i miss alot of tings... very very she bu de... but cant... coz i will be gg... jus hope everything will remain the same when im back... very fast de... hehe... :)
wish upon a star atTuesday, January 23, 2007.Tuesday, January 23, 2007