i'm feeling so much better after i woke up... ya... i went back to slp again after i had my breakfast. ytd nite had gastric... woke up at 9am... thx ming for the mrn call... felt hungry so i cooked mee... end up i feel like vomiting... n i did! abit... coz i keep forcing myself to finish the fish... but it still came out... felt so terrible... my mind starts gg crazy again... so i went back to slp...
now after i woke up i felt so much better... hav to keep up with my studies le... BMS tml! mrn! guess i'm not slping again... jia you~
its quite depressing sometimes... thruout my aussie life... but thx to ming alot alot alot! he always there for me... listen to me... n talk crap to me to make me laff... accom me to talk on phone whenever i call... thx u so so so so much! i really duno how i can survive w/o u here... cant wait to see u soon!!! dun complain i bully u k? hehehe~
n fel~ thx for the gift! sweeet~ i tink the box kinda big n the 'photo frame' moves ard... so the logo kanna detached. but nvm! i manage to 'fix' it back... haha! might not be the same as wat u did. y u nv tk photo of it??? anw here u go....
haha nice? i'll play with it again after exam!~~!! really encouraged me to jia you on my exam... n jus so nice i rcv it after my 1st ppr la! haha... thx alot!!! =))
n here's the ducklings jus outside my hse!~~~~ ccutee!!
i gotta go back to study le... jia you!!!
:)(:
wish upon a star atWednesday, October 31, 2007.Wednesday, October 31, 2007
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wish upon a star at.Wednesday, October 31, 2007
im gg crazy again...
its all in my mind i know... i jus couldn't help it... i think too much... i can't control my feelings n tots again...
i wish im at hm... i dun feel gd whatever i do... i tink i'll be fine when i get over myself...
wish upon a star at.Wednesday, October 31, 2007
omg... i tink i start feeling stress liao... arrghh~~
i blogged alot abt my stress here... coz i got no one to turn to.. well. there is ming ming... but cant always bored him abt my stress... unless im really really stress... =P
hopefully its my final exam of my life~ i dun wanna go thru it again anymore... sometimes i wish i can jus skip tis exam n poo~ holidays! haha dream on man...
starting from tml time will pass very fast till thur i tink... after my 2nd paper can relax abit...
as for now... its the battle within myself... hope i can make it thru...
:)(:
wish upon a star atSunday, October 28, 2007.Sunday, October 28, 2007
its daylight saving time~ i just had 1 hr less to slp!~ 1 hr less to study or slack~ so now the time difference between aussie n sg is 3 hrs!its sun... n my 1st paper is on tue! ohhh... y m i still not stress?? i duno how to describe the feelin now... it wasnt as stress as the previous exam... i hav been studying constantly for the past 2 weeks... tts y im not worrying? but~ its not in my head yet! i still need to memorize...haiz... pls give me energy n the mood to study plssss~~~ guess i have to wait till the day be4 exam den start to panic n den start to memorize... wish me luck!!!:)(:
wish upon a star at.Sunday, October 28, 2007
what a great home i have...
what a place to study...
great...
empty...
hate it...
i want to shout, sing n person who i can talk to!!!!
wish upon a star atThursday, October 25, 2007.Thursday, October 25, 2007
im so distracted when im studying at home!! planning to put my com away... so i decided to blog 1st. hehe...
i used to do work at nite n slp late... but recently i've been waking up early... have been start studying 2 weeks be4 exams... still not stress yet... so nth goes in... i'm just reading n taking down notes... hope it will helps... i can only start memorising few days be4 exams... hope what i'm doing is rite... i'm still tryin to get into the mood of studying... but i'll stress if i'm behind my plan... n everyone's in their own room... study study study study........... =((( the whole hse is so empty sometimes... i wanna go hm~~~
alright... enough abt boring stuffs...
its my 1st time making my own pancakes!~ its not as nice as the one in Mac... haha... but its fun making it... (=
went to DFO couple days ago... bought a purse for my mum as bday gift! its from country road... usual price is $89!!! i got it at $25~ haha tink coz dey wan to get rid of old stock! but its a gd buy anw... n i bought a vest at $9.95 only!!!!! cheap cheap cheap~ haha...
i think twice be4 putting this pic up. but u noe, its so bored, no other entertainment.. anw, here u go...
frens came over to our hse, cooked dinner n watched movie with projector in the kitchen! =)
pandan leaves for making tang yuan dessert!
star shape tang yuan!
cooking in process~
served!
watching hollow man 2... sorry abt the gory scene =P its projected on the window blind~ we r watching it in the kitchen~
my star shape tang yuan!~
from residents of our block... haha! spelling error~
guess i hav to go back n study le!! haiz...
soon it will be over~~ jia you!~~
:)(:
wish upon a star atTuesday, October 23, 2007.Tuesday, October 23, 2007
i just took a nap... wishing when i woke up i'm at my own room in sg... feeling so blur when i woke up... thou slept for only 1 hr.. but the timing is so weird... 6.45 to 7.45pm... jus feels so weird...
its so empty... i wish i'm back hm... i dun feel its myself here...
thanks ming for listening to me... if not i'll be lost again... u really makes me feel so much better, alive n more being me...
hope i can put it thru... 9 more days... jia you!
:)(:
wish upon a star atSunday, October 21, 2007.Sunday, October 21, 2007
tts my dinner last nite... hehe... getting greedier... more side dishes~ :))i did celebrate hari raya ok~ haha... last min in the mrn frens called us... i dun even noe there is a celebration organized by the residents. anw... the food is cooked by all the malay residents here... nice~ heard them talking abt how they prepare the food n all that the nite be4~ the cookies imported or shuld i say smuggled from sg!~ haha~ n my fren's story abt their own house celebration n asking for forgiveness etc etc... its so harmony... dun tink we ask for forgiveness during chi new yr rite? haha... not tt i noe... anw...
wish upon a star atWednesday, October 17, 2007.Wednesday, October 17, 2007
finally finished my assignments!!~ yeah~
but i keep tellin myself not to slack... keep gg... need to study... cannot relax, muz plan my time nice nice... control my feelings... keep telling myself to do this do that... if cant catch up with my plan, i stress again... the big prob is i duno my limit... i duno how to keep cool... i jus keep trying n finding whats best for me but its not working out... mb for the time being but at the end of the day... no... mb tts y i'll become emotionally unstable...
i dun expect anyone to understand what i'm gg thru nor noe what i'm thinking... but i expect myself to know but sometimes i dun... i keep thinking to myself... sometimes lost in my own world... omg... i'm drifting off again...
what is the purpose?
what i'm saying here might mean no sense to anyone or even 'wrong sense' to anyone... but it definitely make sense to me... if i'm able to figure everything out...
haha... make sense? it doesn't matter...
:)(:
wish upon a star at.Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Help! i'm on the verge of going insane! everyone's gg thru the same thing... assignment n exam! i need to destress!!!
have been trying to keep my spirit high and positive... but i'm emotionally unstable... one tiny little thing can turn my mood upside down. i duno if i shuld let u out or control. i tink i need some fresh air... im gg out soon... to where? lib... -_-|||
wish upon a star atTuesday, October 16, 2007.Tuesday, October 16, 2007
its Mon~ i've been doing my assignment the whole day~ slept at 2am plus... woke up at 8.30am.. haha silly ming ming giv me mrn call.. haha.. told him not to de.. anw, i watched High School Musical 2 while eating salad as my breakfast.. after tt spent the whole day do assignment.. till lunch time... had kimchi fried rice again.. tis time with garlic, onion and sesame oil... haha~ but its very spicy~~
after lunch, wanted to wash clothes de... but both block washing machines all used up... n u noe wat? its sunny today, n its freakin hot as compared with just ytd n the day be4! the weather here is so random~ but thx god summer's here~ hehehe~ came back to continue with my work all the way till dinner time... jus had my dinner... n i still got half way to go for my assignment! wats taking me so long!~?~~! i wanna finish it by to9! hope i can chiong all the way~~ i've been eating lots of snacks to keep me gg~ haha!
my life for now jus... slp, eat, study n eat den slp. everyday~ oh, n few toilet breaks, browse friendster, blog & webcam with ming. tts all! argghh~ everyday wishing i can put it thru n remind myself to be positive abt exams... still doing gd~ wish me luck!
:)(:
wish upon a star atMonday, October 15, 2007.Monday, October 15, 2007
arhh~ its sunday n theres no sch anymoree!!! yippy~ BUT... exam's here soon =(((
slept early last nite... abt 1am plus n u noe wat?? i woke up at 7.30am! thx to drunken ming ming... haha! but its ok~ i can start doin my sch work early, but i spent whole day just to finish my editorial. still got 1 more assignments to go~ gambatte! my 1st paper will b on 30th Oct~ fast fast.. i cant wait to enjoy 4 the rest of my life. wahaha! jus hope tt i hav the energy n drive til the end of exam... as expected i'll be havin mood swings thruout this period. hope i can make it thru~ *cross finger*
tonight's main course: hoki fish with lemon crumb, organic baby salad and homemade mashed potato! wahaha! nth better to do u noe... i muz learn how to spice up my life abit be4 drivin' crazy by my exam~
keep my spirits high and positive thruout this period ok?? :)(:
wish upon a star atSunday, October 14, 2007.Sunday, October 14, 2007
it started all over again... i have to pick it up all over again... din understand why and how... it just happened again... is it something wrong with me? what is the problem that i cant see? can anyone show me? feelings i hide, problems i think, endless and unsolvable thoughts... its all coming back again... how will i handle this time? no... i haven't got an answer... perhaps alone will be better off...
i see myself as a double sided freak with an angel and devil in my mind that i cant think properly. i cant even understand myself. can u?
wish upon a star atSaturday, October 06, 2007.Saturday, October 06, 2007
"Nobody's Home"
I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.
What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
wish upon a star at.Saturday, October 06, 2007