how do you define success? what does success means to you? in life, relationship, friends, families, work, dreams etc. is it becoz i felt disappointed in some areas tts y i put all my hopes in myself, my future... the scholarship... i now tts not it. it took my quite some time to get over the rejection. i know i have to keep trying, in one way or another.
just when i'm feeling sucks at what i'm gg thru, other people might be at worse state den me. financially i cant say mine is bad, just that mb oversea studies is really out of qn w/o scholarship. when i used to think that it comes so easy but now i just have to be grateful. i cannot deny that my definition of success is money and to have a success career. i won't call my current job a career. it gets boring sometimes. i have to re adjust my thinking, re setting my goals. recently feeling quite down. gets negative feelings easy. felt neglected and unappreciated. i know my social life sucks, and its getting worse n worse. i duno how to talk to people. lost the ability to communicate and socialise. i'm living in my own mind. i need to clear my mind and tots. i wanna open up but alot of stuffs just shut me down. feels like there are many knots in my brain. very fed up and annoying. i wanna be carefree n have fun again....
tml will be a better day....................
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