everything seems so fine n happy...
stupid me start the topic...
stupid me tink too much...
matter gets worse... out of control n unexpected things happened...
i really dun mean it... u noe it...
u really cant help it... i noe it...
time jus flew when we start talking... forgot abt gg hm early... meeting frenz... slping early...
i noe can't blame anyone n it is no body fault... but i noe very well why all dis is happening... becoz of me, my f***king past... it jus there inside my brain n heart... nt abt de person anymore but fear, worries n hopeless... it is hard to be understood... hard to be explained... selfish me to expect ppl to understand n accept it... naive to tink tt it really doesnt matter... but de f***king shit is jus in my life n i gotta live with it... suffer with it...
i really duno else i can do but jus say sorry tt i m de way i m now... but i nv lie to u, feelin for u is real... hope u really feel it... rem de grand ma n grand pa story? hope u'll wait for me to be de same pace as u... n i will wait for u to slow down... i hope we can work this tgt... n today i can see it is very hard on u... i duno wat i can do or say le... only able to let u do watever u tink tt makes u feel rite...
from now on... i'll help u to tink for urself more... u need to 1st... spend ur time wisely. we tired not to break de chain, but aso no need to meet me for so long... esp u r doin nite shift... some times accom u eat dinner or meet u at yishun or wlds can le. 1 to 1 and a half hrs will do. after which... meet ur frens n go hm early... or go hm 1st... u really gotta spend time at hm... no matter u like it or not... dun wish u n ur family have communciation prob... jus be gd boy k... i noe u hav cut down on smoking for quite some time le... n u said u will quit smoking be4 the end of semester... i hope u still rem it... i wun force u... but since u hav tink n tired for so far le... jus go all de way n really quite smoking ok? its for ur own gd... it is almost 4am n u jus start to walk hm... i'll try not to let u hav nx time le k? u too mus noe how to tk care of urself k... guess u rching hm soon... i go n prepare to slp le... hear frm u agn...
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
bought my own bicycle! can cycle to sch everyday lor... n hopefully can hav cycling session with ming ming n xue ni... if i can cycle to yishun... haha~ killed my own files coz i forgot they were in de freezer for de past 30min! finally finish my pp report... ate steamboat at hm... with ming ming too~ hehe... he like part of de family le... dinner here every tue n thur... will become fat soon wor...
Monday, June 12, 2006
making 2nd batch of chocolates at ying's hse. i was super late. suppose to meet 11am at JE but i woke up at 12pm! rush down by cab... today we did very fast n wasnt as messy.. finally ate de sliced fish beehoon but not as nice as expected... meet fel n jack they all at orchard... shop for a while... ate subway... de-li-cious! talk abt chalet tingy... wanna go balcony but expect many ppl so we tk train hm... went abmiratly to buy fried chicken n drinks near fel blk... talk talk talk... tk 912 hm with ming ming... ZzZzZzzzZZZzzZZZzzzZZZzzzz
Sunday, June 11, 2006
jus came back from genting... it was a great trip... most of de details is on him blog... haha, i shall not say more... jus to say tt i'm happy n enjoyed de trip! haha... my family will feed u till fat fat lor! always ask u to eat more... haha! there will be more trips overseas yah? :)(:
Thursday, June 8, 2006
jus a short entrie be4 i slp... today my 1st driving practical lesson! it was fun! gotta chance to drive... hehe... in the circuit only of coz... hehe... driving in circle... haha... lucky i pass my 1st lesson... n my instructor is an idian, haha but he is funny, if can i wanna fix him as my instructor, see how my 2nd lesson goes lor... which is tml! cant wait for it to come~ hehe~ :)
after tt went to bugis to eat steamboat with xue ni! now den i noe u got read my blog... rem to tag when u saw tis post. haha... the steamboat not bad la hor... hehe, got shanghai nian gao... my favorite golden mushroom, fish balls n lamb meat~ wahaha... so where will we go for our nx meeting ar? clubbing? haha... let me noe agn ba... thx for chillin' out with me~ :) went to bugis paco walk walk for a while... nth to see or buy... so we went to bugis street... finally bought a necklace each... haha. after tt meet sauming at toa pa yoh... he jus send me hm...
guess tts all for today... haha... now... he is reading out all the sms i sent to him since we started sms-ing... so i gtg lor~ update again! :)(:
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