haven go for my driving lesson since my sch term start... been cancelling all my booking becoz of my FYP. hope nx wk no meeting fall on my driving lesson day~
the dates of UTs had occupied my whole calendar til i have my nx holi at mid Aug... tt means i gotta study every wkends... speakin of study... i duno wat i'm 'studying' actually... lost focus easy... din get my expected grades... like i've been 'studying' for nth... in fact those who said they din study get better den me~ m i stupid or wat... or i jus cant do it... haiz... sad case... endure!!!! 2 more UTs to go~ ren ren ren~~~
1st time watch whole football match at joanne's dad hse... watched with ming ming, anne and her family, nis, kim, mao and jack. yaofeng? havin some prob wif his gal thus nt joining us... he ar... any sad case... haiz... football nt tt bored as i tot... can start to feel the excitment while watching them kicking~ haha... but din get the chance to watch the final... but at least manage to watch the 1st half. hehe.
while waiting for ming ming to come meet me... here's some to talk abt wat i've been thru today... manage to woke up myself... watch ch5 in the mrn... providing updates on the final world cup... manage to see some shots on the goals and saw how zidane got his last red card be4 retirng... haha...
looking at flies AGAIN today... kinda slack... it all abt reviewing wat we've learnt... done with the ppt and presentatn very fast too... BUT... after tt still got FYP meeting! Sian... presentatn exceed time limit again... n i've been presenting more den enuff... zao zhi dao dun research so much during wkends... doesnt put into use~ so hardworking for wat sia... nth shows up... nvm... save it for my logbook... speaking of tt... i've not compile mine~ haiz... leave it after my colloquium... sometimes i feel i too 'hardworking' for nth... i did spend time studying n researching... BUT... it wasnt putting into good use... haiz... wats wrong with me??? can any1 tell me? wat can i do abt it? i really duno... sometimes jus feel like givin up.. as in tryin not to 'study' so much... jus see things work out w/o tryin to be hardworking... mb it will be better? haha... but i dun dare to try... scare it end up worst!!!! haiz... endure~ endure~ wonder how i pull thru uni if i ever get into one... haiz... leave it to future den tink ba...
after FYP meeting, i felt kinda lost... a feelin like i'm not doing a good job... i always expect many tings from myself... until i really duno if wat i'm doin is rite or wrong... gd or bad... worth it or not... wanted to play pool jus few min be4 lib close... but fated... we r jus FEW steps slower den others... haha! after tt ying meet michelle to go hm... felt kinda extra... knowing michelle will feel awkward when i'm ard... anw i'm a boring person in sch... dun like to socialise... esp. when all my frenz r so into games... which i'm kinda opposite... so here i am... alone.... fa dai-ing n living in my own world when i'm in sch... tts how i spend my time in sch can i even imagine myself? no... sometimes bored n not myself like hell but nth i can do... but felt being alone... so i walked alone to wlds cc... saw places to park my bike le... den slowly too a long n slow walk back hm... thinkin abt lots of stuffs... comparing how i've spend my life now n den... felt kinda sad... duno y...
gg to meet ming ming lor... haha~ tata~
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