its 11.26pm now... ive lots of work not yet done... jus wan to blog sth be4 i start... time jus flies... FYP report... hvnt even start writing in full sentance... just points to cover... min. 2000 words n 25 pages... its a draft report for my final year proj... mus be submited by wed... worst still... got 2 tests coming up... cell cycle adn structural bio... hvnt touch... wat have i done today? tot i plan today for study? ya... i woke up at 10am... start to write protocol and compile results for water activity... finished it by 12pm plus... feeling tt i've acomplish sth... tts gd... but i start to slack since then... look thru cleo mag again... start surfing for online shops... who knows its 4pm plus... quickly start my report... once i online... chat for a while... with my cousin n angie... she back.. tts fast... i'll be like her nx yr... studying at monash... but still keep in touch with bf... got tgt when back too... how sweet... asked abt how to do the report do... start to do the outline... basically jus cope n paste from the guildeline... see wat to include.. the flow etc... the most diff part is abstract n intro... decide to do it at the end... started off with materials and method... copy and paste for last report too... sound easy huh? but i spent hrs on it... n tts wat ive done only... rest of the time i was writing notes in point form as to what to be include... it jus the draft of the draft report... how stupid... i wan to do it gd but end up spendin lots of time on it... now i got no time to finish plus tests not yet study... haiz... its last sem de... jia you~
time really flies... its been mths tgt... starting to realise wat has been happening all this while... u r wat i predict in the very beginning... wan to start tings slowly for u were too confident... i noe tis day will come... i knew it but i still giv in unconsciously... for i din express.. but its inside me... now we hav got so far... hope we still hav the energy to carry on... its partly becoz of me... becoz of my thinking n feeling... im still not as strong as i hav been... i will protect myself in the way tt i tink is safe... i'll push everything away n start taking it slowly again... i dun wan to be disappointed... i dun wan to expect sth tt i will not get... words is so much easier to say den done... love is not abt words but feelings... for i will not expect anything no more... for i will not tink of any possibilities tt i tink so no more... for i will not compare the past and now no more... for i will not care no more... for i will not tink no more... for i will only focus on myself... tts all i hav after all... i cant rely on anyone no more... for it is easier to say den doing itself... tts jus my tinking... whether or not i can do it is another tings... i only hope for ur understanding... understand y i feel tis way... understand y i think tis way... understand wat i need... understand wat i dun need... understand every little thing of me even those tt i dun... is tis an expectation or wat... tts jus my tots... hav u understand it all? hav u even care abt it? i wonder...
wish upon a star atSunday, November 12, 2006.Sunday, November 12, 2006