i should be slping by now... coz im working tml... yes! tml is sunday n i have to work!! haiz... the only thing tt i would want to work on sun is the double pay... but sadly i have to work on christmas day which is a paid public holiday so that is no double pay but hours off only. arghh...
anw... recently i've been thinking abt my life... whats nx? time passes so fast... been working for 1 yr n 7 mths. catch up with some frens during monash alumni dinner n i keep thinking abt what others r doing... what im doing n what i will be doing for the rest of my life... although we graduated with the same course, some took different route... most of us work in lab. one took up management level, he seems to be doing gd as he is climbing up the ladder already... but i look at my situation... nah... long way in my job man... felt like im kinda stuck. i felt its not enough... i wanted more... thinking abt the gd life i wan but if i stay in my current situation its hard to achieve. there is no sense of achivement from my current job too... i'm just like a factory worker. been wanting to get away n do sth else... if i were to change lab... lets see... there is a lot of research labs which requires molecular skills... but in my lab what i've been learning n doing is mainly microb stuffs... which sadly is not very much practice in other labs... now tt my skills r very limited...
further studies... is what i really want to.... but financially is difficult... to think back the time when i jus graduated. i wanted to further too... n to see those of my frens who r doing their further studies now... i envy them.... but the time when i graduated sth happened to my family that makes me drop the idea of gg back to studies... now that i thinking of what i want to do with my life, i would still want to further my studies... but now that i understand their situation, i cannot make myself for them to pay for my sch fees again... somemore i still got my study loan to pay for.... hai............ courses r very limited in sg... n private uni... r not that 'safe' to me anymore... just applied for oversea scholarship but its been almost 3 weeks n thats no news................... what else can i do????? been looking online on the courses that are available the whole night........ n thinking what i want to do.... but there are so many limitation...... what can i do..... just what can i do...
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